There are seasons in most people's life were we will miss out on different things. Sometimes that can be early on as a child if you move around or if you choose to go to college out of town. Other find this season later in life when they are busy with careers or general life adventures. For me this season is now and it is weird. I have never lived away from home and knew it would be different in some aspects. However I see this season getting a little harder lately in two different areas.
The first is missing out in Texas... As we entered May I knew there would be multiple things I would be missing out on. It didn't hit me until Mother's Day about how many different things I would be missing. I know sometimes in life we take things for granite but I do love making memories and being their to support loved ones with big celebrations. This weekend is my niece, Avery's first dance recital. If you know me you know how much dance was apart of my life. It kills me to know I am missing it but she has assured me of a few things: 1) We will watch the video when I return, 2) She is the best in her class (The picture of the text conversation is between her and I on my moms phone) and 3) She gets to wear lipstick! She and her brother are my world! I think one of the best things in this life is being an AUNT!
The second area is missing out in Haiti... As I prepare to leave for the Summer I hate thinking of what I will miss out on here. Just like my close friends in Texas these people have become my family here. They have laughed with me, cried with me and even built me up at times. I know they will carry on just fine with out me but the fear of missing out is still real. I do find comfort that when I get back it will look a lot different from the first time I arrived here in January. I will have those friends and the amazing Livesay family waiting for me with lots of stories and laughs.
With all that said and as I have been processing the last few days I am choosing to not let Satan run my chatterbox inside my head. It's easy to give up and believe those lies like... I'm not a good enough Aunt because I am missing out or the lie of not being a good friend as my friends get married or have babies and I am not close to help. As those false ideas chatter in my head I am choosing to believe that God has me where he wants me. He is working in and through me. No one said this would be easy but I do know this was all in His plan.
