I Surrender

This past Sunday I attended church with one of my new friends here, Jess. This particular church is an English speaking church where both Haitian and Americans go.  I wasn't sure what to expect but wanted to check it out.  I was a little nervous as anyone is visiting a church for the first time but I genuinely loved it.   It was Valentine's Day and the message was on Agape Love.  The pastor spoke on how God's love is vast, eternal, limitless, unending, redemptive, tender and unfathomable.  This message served as a great reminder to me and helped me remember to show the love of Christ through my actions and self.  

However I want to step back to the beginning of the service when I walked into church.  The worship band was already playing and if you know me you know I love to worship.  We found our seat and started to sing... Then I was taken back.  I looked up to see a Haitian worship team singing in english and then looked around me and saw multiple Haitian men and women worshipping in english.  You may be thinking, "yeah Page you are in Haiti so of course they were there" but that's not always the case.  I have never been to a church in Haiti with english speaking much less others singing in english.   My heart was overflowing for many different reasons but most of all the image of us being one body, worshipping the same God no matter the differences.  

As I stood there the third song they started to play was, " I Surrender" by Hillsong.  This is a song I have sang many times through different valleys but it meant so much more this time.  Here I am standing in Haiti, in a church singing out words that I want to proclaim in my life.

I surrender

I surrender

I want to know you more

I want to know you more

Like the rushing wind

Father breath within

Lord have your way

Lord have your way in me

At the end of the song I stopped, closed my eyes and was in awe of His mercies and the sweet reminder that He is that breath and wind to my life.  I was reminded that no matter where you come from, what you have or where you have been He is the same.

Father I'm here and my arms are stretched out to you. I surrender.  I can't control it all and can't continue to make it about me.  My heart is being changed and broken here in Haiti and you are showing me how to break down walls, break down comfort zones and be with you. You are the giver of life and I pray I can continue to surrender to you.  Lord have your way in me and continue to use me.